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Welcome to Flabbergasted and Busting Loose--it takes time to find your place in society, but when you need to make room for happiness inside of your skin it should happen quickly but sometimes takes a little while.  I was in my late fifties by the time I found it--I'm proof to the statement 'it's never too late' and when you crawl around for so long with the hope of some day finding your peace, when you finally get a'hold of it and realize you deserved it all of the while, you can't help but stand tall and enjoy the view.  

I worked hard all of my life trying to lose weight, trying to fill the emptiness inside of me with tangible, digestible things that totally missed my heart and went through my stomach and landed on my hips and thighs.  I blamed food for all of my problems, yet I loved food more than anything on earth, it seemed.  It was a terrible game of tug of war and I lost several years of my life trying to find happiness in being thin, focusing on a size instead of a state of mind.  It took me years to figure it out--how to love myself, how to accept the things in life that were unchangeable, how to understand that food was a fuel, however delicious and enjoyable at times, and how to fight through my fears and emotions without running to food.  I've learned a lot in my lop-sided journey--the ups the downs, the stops at roadside diners and gas stations, the scenic views, the people along the way who have slapped my back, given me courage and super-sized motivation--it has been a fabulous ride and I'm hoping I get to share some of what I've learned with you!  

I am a work in progress.  Please read my blog

to get an idea of what I've been through

since December 1, 2012 when I made up my mind 

to take my life back after a two year depression

to almost killed me.  

When I first started, I was so big I couldn't

do anything but sit in an easy chair

and try to stretch.  So I rocked hard and

did arm movements and before I knew it

I was able to lift my legs and do a workout

in my chair.

I fell in love with Tai Chi. I found a 

workout "Chair Tai Chi" on Amazon

and did it 30 minutes every day.  It 

helped my breathing and agility

and made me stronger, emotionally as

well as physically.

I was determined to workout, so I bought a wave

bag and beat the heck out of it.  It was and is

a great exercise.

Ain't nothing like a fat lady trying to work

out on a machine made for skinny people.

But I figured out how to modify and

made a difference.

I started out on this bike going as slow as

a crawling bug and only doing 2 minutes.

I gradually worked my way to 15 minutes 

and celebrated.  I can now do an hour 

a day.  

Everybody told me getting in the pool would make

the biggest difference, and it did.  Thank you Gena 

Franklin and Tina Baker for helping to motive

me to get into the pool.  

My first long term goal, six months, was to be 

able to work in my garden by late May.  I 

am happy to say I am doing that. 

I wanted to be riding my bike by Spring.  

Here I am riding UPHILL in my neighborhood.

My next goal is to be walking in the Fall of 2013

I want to be walking at least 3 blocks without assistance

by the end of November.  The picture is soon to come.